From the mind of S.J

Here you will find my thoughts, musings, and general whatever Glad you're here and I hope you enjoy.

4/17/24

Just got through watching Fallout T.V series. Due to a woman being the main character & every man in the story being either evil, weak, or stupid, it really showed me how far this downward spiral of our modern media has come. It really hurt the show for me and I can't in good conscience reccomend it to anyone except for massive fans of the games.

5/6/24

"It was the damn phones"

"I think our parents were right,
it was the damn phones.
We laughed when we were children, hearing it set snapgram and instachat and facetalk.
they didn't understand, they couldn't even say it right.
I thought I knew better than them.
They didn't know what it was like having a world to the tip of our fingers.
we scroll through so much, we have headlines tattooed in our skin.
wires for veins.
AI for a brain.
and they may not have understood, but they were right
it is the damn phones.
a drug in my pocket dependent on simulation.
but can we blame us?
we were but children when they were given
we didn't know how to stop it
if I divided up all the hours I spent on a screen, existential dread and regret would creep in.
so I ignore this fact by typing away
and it's not like I can throw away my phone
It's how we communicate.
its how we relax
it's the medicine that is surely making our souls die
I used to say I was born in the wrong generation
but I was mistaken
for do I not do everything I say I hate?
when I look in the mirror, I see a ghost staring back
I try not to think about who I would be without technology
the character behind my phone screen has become self aware
almost worse than being naive
for i know it's poison but i drink anyways
we used to be scared of robots gaining consciousness
a lie by the media companies to keep us distracted
as to not ourselves become conscious of the mess that they have created
we are the robots
we are the products
and so I sit and I scroll and I rot
on repeat sit and scroll and rot
until my own thoughts are what's being fed to me on TV
until my own feelings are wrapped in celebrities
until my body is a tool of my political identity
and so I sit and I scroll and I rot
and so I post on the internet how the internet has failed us
so that I may not fail my internet presence
I think our parents were right......

It was the damn phones..."